Too Long

So I was supposed to come here every day and update... unfortunately I havent but I will say that I have done much better in trying to accomplish things (except for today...) other than that I have cut down on soda and I've been drinking more water... I keep a plastic cup by my desk filled with water and drink it daily... I've also been drinking hisbicus water... yum! Makes me urinate a lot more but I can feel a difference... I also stopped eating after work, so no I havent eaten dinner but I try to eat a big lunch, and some breakfast, as well as healthy snacks throughout the day. I won't lie... it's been HARD but after reading articles on msn and 17, I have kinda got it in my head that i need to record what Im doing for my personal satisfaction. I NEED to take small baby steps, and I realize that this is not going to happen from one week to another, but with every small step that I take I will make myself feel much better and hopefully in the end it will keep me going. I also didnt realize that people had specific workout playlists... so at the moment i find myself downloading music that will hopefully help me out and i can start getting in tune and not let the ball drop. i honestly dont want to let myself down. I havent told anyone about what Im doing. I kind of want to keep it to myself until I feel strong enough about letting anyone know... this is soo hard... i feel like i need to find a support system though... like let someone know... anyone... lol

it super late... i should finish downloading songs and head to rest so that maybe.... just maybe i can wake up and maybe want to go jogging.... i hope i do!! who knows...