In Lala Land...

ok so maybe i should try and do this more frequently... idk why i havent posted anything...

laziness.. .there you go! that's the word.

anywho... looks like the house might actually be done pretty soon... oh so nervous!
mariah's is almost 3... ohh goody!

as for me... have i had any accomplishments... oh i think not. if anything i've sort of fallen off the wagon. but i keep trying! water, water, water. i ate grapes as a snack. i'm still cutting down on coke. i think the most i drink is like a can a day.. or even less.

oprah's best life week inspired me... recorded and then viewed it on saturday... i took like 4 pages of notes... what to eat and what not to do... exercise and checkups and oh soo much. BUUUT the thing is that i need to do it. it's not a matter of me writing it, it's a matter of me doing it....

i read about meditation... i think i should start... releases stress, so i hear... maybe that can help me. i need something that's going to calm me down and get me better... && i spoke to rich about going back to church, any church... the lord is universal. we need him more than ever now... the decisions we are making need to be backed up by a rock! our rock needs to be HIM because all things are possible through him... amen!... i prayed today... i kinda got side-tracked but i prayed! feels good when you thank the lord for giving you one more day to live... for waking you up in the morning... thank you god almighty!!

I need to become a better person... i'm taking baby steps... it's a start...

Too Long

So I was supposed to come here every day and update... unfortunately I havent but I will say that I have done much better in trying to accomplish things (except for today...) other than that I have cut down on soda and I've been drinking more water... I keep a plastic cup by my desk filled with water and drink it daily... I've also been drinking hisbicus water... yum! Makes me urinate a lot more but I can feel a difference... I also stopped eating after work, so no I havent eaten dinner but I try to eat a big lunch, and some breakfast, as well as healthy snacks throughout the day. I won't lie... it's been HARD but after reading articles on msn and 17, I have kinda got it in my head that i need to record what Im doing for my personal satisfaction. I NEED to take small baby steps, and I realize that this is not going to happen from one week to another, but with every small step that I take I will make myself feel much better and hopefully in the end it will keep me going. I also didnt realize that people had specific workout playlists... so at the moment i find myself downloading music that will hopefully help me out and i can start getting in tune and not let the ball drop. i honestly dont want to let myself down. I havent told anyone about what Im doing. I kind of want to keep it to myself until I feel strong enough about letting anyone know... this is soo hard... i feel like i need to find a support system though... like let someone know... anyone... lol

it super late... i should finish downloading songs and head to rest so that maybe.... just maybe i can wake up and maybe want to go jogging.... i hope i do!! who knows...